I hate and I love

I hate myself and

I love him

Love but not like

Love? I don't dare to confirm

And also don't want to know

Don't want to love

I hate

It make me feel annoying

I simply think everything about him everyday

Why am I so useless?

Said don't want to find him but still like that

I miss him very much

I miss him every second, minutes, hours

But him... I don't think he will miss me

Maybe just only when his mood is very good so he will miss me?

Don't care

I wanna know everything about him

I wanna know all the truth

I don't wanna let him trick

Ya, maybe he is tricking me

Or maybe he is not

Whatever

I don't care

I just wanna know everything

I trying to hide my feeling

I do everything let myself busy to forget

But when i am alone

He came out on my mind

What to do

I am useless

I asked Zheng "Why boys were all like that? Everything were their fault"

He answered "在说别人的错误前先想想自己是否曾经犯过同样的错，也许你自己觉得没有错但不代表别人会这样认为"

Nice answer

But it does not match what I say

He did not know what am i saying and simply give me a answer like this

*sweat

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I have studied part of science and sj this two days

Will continue study tonight

I am tired right now

Not enough rest i think

Keep sneezing this few days

Almost get sick

But no one care

I did not care too

*peace

I hope I get sick

Then I wont think so much

What a stupid mind will think like that

I feel want to eat french fries right now

Anyone can buy it for me?