Down! Farking nightmare

It's 2am now

I should sleep at this time

But I woke up

Because of a farking nightmare

It's about him

Damn it

Why?

Why let me dream about that after I make the decision don't want to find him?

I'm getting crazy

I send him a message just now although I know he wont reply

Tears dropped down

Really dumbs

This is the 1st time

The tears drop down because of him

为何？

明知不该一头栽下

却还要这样?

常常假装着不在意

忍住所有泪水

只为了不想做个傻瓜

如果现在能下场大雨那该多好

它能把泪水掩盖住

让人分不清是泪还是雨

累了

假装得累了

真得很辛苦

好想找个人让我依靠